Cause life is missing and living

Hey there,

it has been a while since you heard from me, your totally awesome SkyLuke. Totally sorry for that, it isn´t really that I didn´t had the time, just that I spent the time in other places then this blog. Seems paradox, I created this blog to share my great experiences (even the not so great or nice ones, after all they will be great some day, as it was these that allowed me to grow). So I hope you accept my apology and continue to read about my life.

So there have been a great load of great things that happened since my last post. I went to Kiel (for Study purpose) and I went home to meet up with my lovely family. I had great parties for a good friend moving away and a nice birthday (happy birthday to me^^). Nothing more really to say, there is a lot on my mind but this is really the platform to announce what goes on in my head (after all some of you might want to get me into hospital afterwards^^).

Still I think in the days to come you will find some thoughts of mine here in the Internet.

All for now, but not for ever ;)

Your awesome SkyLuke

Living in the Internet

Hey guys, today was a rather special day as me and some friends of mine decided to start a You Tube-Channel called "Cantina Gamers".
( https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCCKiGNjdpQ7nNmU4ftqJ4Zg ). Check it out if your intrested in people with no life playing games (probably a LOT of Star Wars, as we are nerds and proud of it) on the computer and having no social life whatsoever. No, of course that isn´t completely true, it would be hard to have no social life and in a sense you could argue that streaming and having fun in the Internet (while playing games, don´t get me wrong!!!) is a new form of social life.

For the purpose of this post I will call this i-social life. Funny how everything with an 'i' in front of it sounds like some sort of cool apple product. Totally not worth the cost but so prestigious that everybody would love to have one. I´m drifting off...

My point really is, in our new modern world a lot of people are of the opinion that 'back to the roots' is the answer to deal with a super quick, global system of information sharing that changed our lives in ways we could have never dreamt off in the past. 30 years ago people talk to one another to meet, today we can do this on WhatsApp (I personally don´t have it but my mum uses it for that purpose). Not being on facebook was a real problem for a friend of mine as everybody just forgot her when parties were being planned. Without an e-mail-address you probably couldn´t even survive in the western world. Nothing new I´m telling you there, still I like to remind people how much time we spent every day in an relationship with technology.

Backing off is no solution, but is having an i-life one? Having a blog and as of today a you tube-channel I would say no, but it helps. We want to show ourselves out into the world, express our feelings and maybe even have the wish to get noticed. In a crowd we want to stand out and that's totally human. Problematic it gets, when people only live in their e-world (e = electronic).

It is as important to have a e-mail address as it is to go out into nature for a walk and fill your lungs with fresh air. Life is all about balance, if you spent to much of your time outside you will sooner or later loose your ties to society in a sense. If you only spent time with your PC or smart phone, you may have a 10000 friends to talk to, but will be lonelier than the all mighty himself. Meeting people in the Internet is ok, meeting those people in real life (with of course proper security arrangements) is ok but not necessary. Meeting people every day for a drink is ok but so is meeting people only once in a while for a drink. Convention dictates that we need to be around people all the time to be really 'happy' and 'well connected'. This is not true, to be honest I don´t like having people around me every day. I often enjoy being alone or only living online for a day.On the other hand these times alone give me the motivation to meet more people in real life, hanging out with friends or going for a walk down to the sea. If one side gets the upper hand, the other one balances it out. My personal balance so to speak.

Find the proper balance between this two parts of life and you will be fine. Don´t let others tell you how much time in the Internet is bad for you or how your isolated because you don´t go out enough. Your life will always be your life. Sometimes we forget that and bow down to society. Never do that.

The awesome SkyLuke

Cause life is winning and letting others win

What a strange title you may think? Nowhere is the concept of 'losing' mentioned even if you probably can guess that this post will be the first negative one I will put on the blog. I thought a bit about actually putting it here, but in all honesty it sort of seems right. I won´t create the image of myself always being happy and seeing the best in every situation. I grave to do this, I always try to be awesome by not getting things hit me in the well protected castle I call my heart. Still, I am human and that image would be false. I cry sometimes, I fear sometimes and sometimes I loose the ability to see the best. No heart is safe from this. Never thing for one moment you actually could be safe in your heart, because it always will be a lie. There are just days that hit you like a truck from the beginning and other days where everything goes right and then something tinny goes wrong for you and you feel depressed. Normally the brain hasn´t got a say in this. The later one is what today and part of yesterday is about. I want to stress, I don´t want your sympathy, I don´t want anything from this, I can cope with myself just fine. I just want to write it down here, free for all, and want you to think about it.

Well today started great, my family left (ok that maybe is a bit sad^^) and I went to catch up on a bit of sleep. Later the evening there was a festival at our university where I wanted to be with some friends. Well I was there and it totally backfired. I don´t know where on the way towards that evening I wanted to just play the game of getting somebody laid. It was just an idea that kicked off, just a bit of fun for some friends. Well maybe a bit more that just fun, maybe I wanted them to be happy. Afterwards you can always name motives for your actions, so let´s just stick with the facts. As you should always lead by example I talked to some girls and actually my first conversation went alright. I got to know her name, she clearly wasn´t uninterested for a flirt. Sadly I lost the momentum and her friend and her went away and later that evening I couldn´t find them to correct my mistake. Well I waited to long and that's fine. Sometimes you win, sometimes you loose. That's alright and I wasn´t to bothered about it. Sadly my later moves didn´t went so well either and so I focused on getting others a partner for the night. You know, giving them the extra mile they need to actually themselves make their move instead of sitting on the bench waiting to be swapped. (I apologise if this metaphor is not so fitting, not a huge football fan). It worked and first I was really happy for the person, then another one followed and in the end even the last of my group got somebody to go home with. Only me left and that puts me down a bit, who wouldn´t be at least a bit sad? Still don´t let it get to close to your heart if your the only one not picked that evening. Sometimes you win, sometimes the others win. Try to be happy for them, next time maybe they will be the one left unpicked. I know it isn´t always easy but give it some effort, cause giving up the next time will not be an option. Believe me and after all at least I can sleep with a lot of space in my bed without an obstacle called human and don´t have to offer someone breakfast. I agree it could be better but it could be a lot worse :)

The awesome SkyLuke

Cause family is awesome

Today was a great day again, not only didn´t I have to go to university but also my mother and my two little brothers came up to my study place for a visit. It´s great to see them all again, as our last meeting was at least two months ago. My brothers continue to grow and I fear in the near future they will stand like a tower above me. We had a great walk at the beach, nice cups of tea and a brilliant sea side dinner in a restaurant. Tomorrow we can all have breakfast together and be grumpy at each other. What better way to start a day.

The awesome SkyLuke

PS: Sorry this post is so short, but I am really sleepy and there really isn´t much to say which I would like to share with the whole world. Some things should stay private ;)

Cause the Doctor makes it all alright

(or rather his companions)

No I´m not ill and no I don´t need a doctor. Well at least not a 'real' doctor, if THE doctor (main Character of the Sci-Fi TV Series "Dr. Who" for those of you who don´t know it - check it out it´s awesome!) should cross your way be sure to point him in my direction. Especially if it is 9. Well what have we learnt about me so far? A, I´m a big Sci-Fi fan and B, you have still no clue what I am actually talking about... Don´t worry neither have I, so let´s carry on and see if I can bring my message across.

Well you know sometimes you are just not having the best of days, reasons aside I don´t think that really needs a place on my blog.  Just so you know, I myself am fine (no worry) but lately there has been a lot on my mind (negative and positive things). I´m the kind of person who things a lot about every situation, always wanting to explore every possible way before acting. Not always the best way to handle situations, but it works for me and that's fine. Everybody needs his own way to deal with life and mine is over thinking and questioning everything. So don´t expect me to be spontaneous in life, that's a rare sight.

So today just didn´t life up to my expectations and I didn´t accomplish everything I set out to do. Nothing important really, I guess I am just an perfectionist. Then a good friend, or maybe more than a friend I don´t know, I really like her and we have sort of a special relation to one another (but I probably will talk about this in length another time, so keep sticking in my blog if you want to know- jeah I know sometimes I am cruel).  

I really need to stop drifting off... So a good friend always comes round every Tuesday and together we dive into the adventures of Dr. Who, in other words we watch the series. We didn´t really talk a lot about important things and that's fine, there is a time and a place for such stuff and it definitely isn´t while watching TV. We ate something, started watching and cuddled a bit, nothing more (as if that wasn´t enough actually). It was great, you can forget the world around you and just be taken away by the wave of fiction clashing over you, retreating for a short time from the world and come back refreshed and filled with new powers. I just enjoy it and little things like that, small retreats if you will, are just so much more. In a way they are what keeps my going and let me be so totally awesome I sometimes can´t even believe that's me. So a great thanks to my film-companion today and a toast (at the moment I and a small Martini are having a late night date ^^) to the little things in life! Treasure them, they are awesome!

The awesome SkyLuke

Cause a good friend is all you need for an awesome day

There is only one problem with awesome days like yesterday: the day afterwards always feels sort of incomplete. When you spent a great day just hanging out with friends, living life and having a nice dinner at the riverside, going to university the following day is so normal. So unawesome.

Damm I really love that word, it has this sounds that makes me feel things I have never experienced before. Well not really, that would be a bit creepy. Still it´s this 'awe', that's sounds like a forgotten battle cry (yeah your right: CRY IT OUT!AWE!!!) and that followed by the 'some' which sounds like you have a great cup of hot cocoa and you just want more. If I ever get the chance I will vote 'awesome' as the most awesome word of the century. Till that time I officially declare it my blog-word and every post hopefully will be filled with AWESOMENESS!

Back to topic... (and away from drifting off, a habit I clearly have)

So summing up, today was a bit boring. I went to university (did I ever mention that I´m a student? Don´t think so. Well know you know and by the way I study German and English to, one distant day, become a teacher - damm I´m doing it again). It was alright, my seminars were fun and insightful, just not so filled with joy. Just a normal day. Still there was this one thing I really looked forward to the entire day. You know, like you looking forward to a nice dessert. Only difference, I expectancy was focused towards my best friend. She is the best mate you can possible have, always ready to listen, to talk and most important to laugh with you. Having someone like her in my life is just a great gift I would never want to miss. At the moment she is at the other end of Germany at a school for here job. Only thanks to Skype (and the technology behind it) we were able to have a conversation where she told me everything about the great time she is having. A part of my actually envies her a bit, her report of the school, and especially the people she newly met there, just sounded great. So we skyped with one another, talked about some books and other things that happened since our last talk.

In short: It was just awesome talking with her!!!

You know what also is a great feature or rather a great trait of her? We are best friends and still don´t have to talk every day to one another. I don´t get how some best friends manage something like that. I don´t know about you, but I would find it really exhausting to talk on a everyday basis to somebody, because eventually you are bound to run out of ideas. Even if you don´t (what is possible I know, just rare in my case), I still love to have these conversations as something special. And for things to be special you just can´t do them on an daily base. That's wouldn´t be special anymore, it would be routine (stating the obvious like it was wisdom. I like it.)

So in conclusion of this post, I just wanted to let you all know what a great friend I have ( there are others of course and I´m sure they will follow in the time to come). No really, I just hope everybody got a friend like that. If you have, hold your mind for a second and remember her, maybe even tell her how much you are happy that she is part of your life and that your grateful for it

Cause, friends are awesome!

 The SkyLuke

The three b - beach, barbecue, bed

While today definitely was a special day for the EU, this is not what my post will be about. But of course I went to vote, after all somebody has to be responsible for what the politicians are doing.
On that quote I end this matter.

As you can see in the title, my day was mainly made up by these three b´s and what a lovely day it was! One of the best person I ever had the fortune to know and a very dear friend decided to have a birthday barbecue (another b - awesome!) with a bike tour before that. It just was great, I always enjoy riding my bike through nature and there are not many things so beautiful when you finally arrive at the beach, put down your blanket and enjoy the sun while being in the company of good friends (and total strangers who you still like when you get to know them). I will not get into detail, as that probably be boring towards everybody who wasn´t there and I don´t want people to quite reading my blog because they envy my day. Let´s just say after being at the beach we went to the harbour (a beautifully small one) and continued our great day with a barbecue at the riverside. In the end we packed our things and know I´m lying in my bed, remembering this brilliant day (you noticed ? I didn´t want to use great again, definitely need to have some variety in my choice of words) while drinking a hot chocolate.

These are the days you always remember when you grow older.
These are the days you look back at, when times get rough.
These are the days where you know what friendship is about.

These are just awesome days!

So do you have such days? Mind sharing them with me? Would love to know about your experiences where you just did feel so great at the end of the day, that the world seemed alright as it is. Just for that day, maybe only for that moment.  Everything is alright.
These are definitely days worthy to be a treasure in our memory.

Your awesome SkyLuke